"The Story of an Idiot"

If i ever wrote a book starring my life, it would have as a tittle "The Story of an Idiot". Trust me, it's a really big story with an idiot going through so many things that you'll get lost by reading it. Let me tell you a fracture of that story of an idiot. This idiot in a certain point of his life, had to make a choice for his future. At that time, in order to take the next step, he had to kill his believes and what he knew to be truth. Doing so that idiot came to the conclusion that in order to leave, he shouldn't say anything to the people he knew he would hurt the most. The idiot left without goodbye. On his journey to the new, he found out that the reason he left everything behind was nothing more than a lie. A lie that he paid at full cost. Because the person he would hurt the most, past away while he was realizing he was living in a lie. Everyone was there to say goodbye but him. And now the idiot missed 2 chances to say goodbye. And now the idiot stands in silence. And now the idiot stops.

Think Positive

Here it comes. Another disappointment.Trying so hard, again and again, but still nothing. No difference at all. What the f*ck am i doing wrong? Is it my face? Is it the sound of my voice? My smell? What?

In the end it comes down to others. You can't control everything. If they're going to like you it's entirely up to them and there's nothing you can do about it. Same old sh*t. I mean f*ck, what else am i suppose to do. Dead end. Moments like these i go in despair. "Think positive". What a joke.