I live among people. And yet again i'm invisible as ever. I live among people. And yet again all i see is statues. I live among people. Do i really live among people? I try to count them all, but half way through i loose the count. Why am i counting them? What's the point? No matter how many i count i'm still here alone. Nothing changed, nothing will. At the end of every count there's only one result. 1 person standing. Me. I made the wrong choices every single time. I took all the wrong turns. But for what reason? What was i thinking? I know it's all my mistake but is it wrong to wanna try for something better? Is it wrong to wanna do more? Is it wrong? I played and i lost. I turn around and there's nothing. While i was playing, behind me everything was disappearing. I guess the joke's on me. I have nothing more to bet. All the hopes and dreams left from the back door. I looked away and everything escaped. I was left behind with this. "Live your life where you are, i don't want to hold you back". How the fuck am i supposed to live my life now? You left me with none to live with! You're telling me to live with something that isn't there! Don't patronize me like this. At-list give me the finger and send me to hell. I'm sorry, you already did. So i guess now i must move on? And what should i tell to myself? What was my part all those years? Was i the bad guy to the story? Was i the huge irresponsible senseless selfish dick who cares for no one? What was my part? What was it? What is my part now? Oh sorry, i'm not in the cast anymore. I guess that's what i am now. An unemployed actor with no future. I know some people who would laugh their asses off if they knew about this. But who cares? Am just an actor. Unemployed. Counting people. Result. 1.
