Trying to hold everything together is hard. Really hard. Especially when you have no idea what to do next. On one side is you and on the other what you must accomplish. In between there's this huge hole, full of traps and obstacles, ready to drag you down. And what you do? Turn around and leave or try to cross over? There's no going back. Not now. You've come so far and the only road is ahead. You make the next step. Now what. You find this wall that you can't climb. You have to destroy the wall and keep going. On the way you find more people like you, lying down exhausted, not able to move any further. Are you going to step on them and pass through? Are you going to leave them there? You have your own problems to think off. These people mean nothing to you. You don't know them. They're just going to waste your time. What you'll do is up to you. Many have chosen to turn blind eyes and continue. No one will blame you if you do the same. But when you reach the other side, turn around and see how many people you stepped on in order to come this far. Well done. You fought hard, you never gave up and you've accomplished your goals. You did it all by yourself. You did it all alone. And now you are at the top. Alone. We, on the other hand, are still fighting in this hole. Together. We're going to make it. Together. And we will make sure that no one is left behind. We're going to stand at the top. Together. But i still feel disappointed because you choose to be alone. Your ego was too big for you to care for other people. Now enjoy everything you have. Alone.
We are Nothing more but People. All we do is Disappoint each other, knowingly and unknowingly. By realizing that it makes us understand more.
Wednesday, 27 November 2013
Monday, 25 November 2013
Goodbye
Today i will not share my disappointment. Today am going to say goodbye to the most important person in my life. I've kept this inside of me for so long, knowing that it will never reach you. You're so far away from me in a place i can never find. I never got the chance to show my gratitude and for that i am truly sorry. I wish you could see inside my heart, so you would understand how much you meant for me. You kept me warm inside your arms. You fed me when i was hungry. You changed my diapers. You heard my first words. You held my hands when i took my first steps. Whenever i was scared or angry, i was always running to you with tears. All of my memories contain something about you. Because of you i survived. Because of you i had a childhood. Because of you i had a home. Because of you i had a family. You are the reason i am who i am today. Although you're not here i still feel i can talk to you. So if you can hear me know that i will always love you and i will always be grateful to you. Only my tears can describe how much i miss you. I didn't have the chance to say goodbye before you go. So i am sitting here writing something you will never see. I just hope that it will reach to you somehow. I just want a second chance to say my final words. Goodbye grandma. Say hello to grandpa for me. Rest in peace.
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